Friday, January 27, 2006

Dear and me! The anti NY duo.

Fly in her Jay Chow pose. *heh heh heh

Chinese New Year is finally here. The first person who wished me a Happy New Year was actually him. Haha, I do miss him.

Posted by jieyi at 1:53 AM

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Hey, come on, I need space, I need more breathing space. I feel so restricted nowadays. It is like I am being constantly burdened with heavy loads that refuses to leave me. It follows me everywhere. I feel like shooing it away, but how?

Somebody, make me feel happy. (:

Posted by jieyi at 10:35 PM

The few things that I will remember about my life in NY. My class, my cca and them.

Sometimes, I feel disillusioned about life.
Sometimes, I feel weak to even move on.
I have been PMSing a lot these days. Just feeling all down.
Thank you people for tolerating me, the incorrigible, temperamental woman here.

Posted by jieyi at 12:01 AM

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Had OCIP gathering today after 7 months of waiting! I missed these people so much!!! I have to confess that this is one of the happiest things that had happened since the start of the year. People were cranky and hilarious in their usual manner. Miss N even treated us to the Swensons meal. *slurps* I thank NY for letting me meet this bunch of wonderful friends that who always make my day in school. (:

Such a nice greenish curvy whirly picture.

:)Jia. Rae. Jie. Fly.Rani. Kuga.Jas. Choy.Fa.Joel.Ms Nirmala.Ms Anne.Mr 'Vitty' Tan.(:

Posted by jieyi at 1:11 AM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Wisest is she who knows she does not know.

Looked at my latest schedule for 白云岗performance I was like OH NOOOOOOOOOO! I will utterly busy for the next whole month.

Plato commented that there must be a reality behind the 'material world'. he called this reality the world of ideas; it contained the eternal and immutable 'patterns' behind the various phonomena we come across in nature. - Plato's theory of ideas

Is that where all our creative juices come from? The world of ideas? I have never really thought about it. It is from the world of ideas that true knowledge and not those that were stuffed down our throat were generated. Yet, we seem lost seeking for other things so untrue.

Posted by jieyi at 11:12 PM

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

I just read a book. It posed 2 simple questions that has set man thinking for centuries.

Who are you?

Where does the world come from?

In the process of growing up, we lose the ability to wonder about the world. And in doing so, we lose the something central. For somewhere inside ourselves, something tells us that life is a huge mystery.

Most adults accept the world as a matter of course. It is because we are world-weary. Some will explain that it is god who created the world, thus we are the sons of god. But is that sufficient to help me answer the above questions? I doubt so.

Maybe, I will understand it someday. Maybe.

Posted by jieyi at 11:07 PM

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Somebody, make me feel really happy please? That is all that I ask for- now(:

Posted by jieyi at 8:23 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

OPS, I have realised that I have started my year with posts sounding rather bitter. Yikes.

Yet I must say I feel vindicated now, exhuberant in fact.

Because I have made my decision and I hope it is the right one this time. Please let it be right.

I like how Robert De Niro is looking here, all lost in the middle of the city.

Posted by jieyi at 4:30 PM

Saturday, January 07, 2006

A list of my complains that I simply have to let it off my chest. It is bothering me very much.

Have been dead damn busy these days.

I am stuck in a dilemma. A BIG FAT TROUBLESOME dilemma.

I want to talk to someone, someone who can tell me what to do.

But everyone's too busy nowadays to hear me out anyway.

Who can be bothered to tell someone else how to run her life?

But, I think maybe I will feel better soon. Hopefully real soon.

Posted by jieyi at 12:48 AM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Was a pretty miserable day. Simply because it reminded me too much of my TJ orientation days.

MS and me forever grumbling about our OG people and secretly commenting how cute were our OGLs.

Watching our OGLs dunking each other into the pond in front of the general office, cheating endlessly in all games.

Ending school early and hanging around with the TK people at the sports complex playing bridge.

Forever spying around the LT for 04 and gang.

Constantly lying on people's shoulders, with the familar scent.

Somehow, all these thoughts flooded my mind today till my head throbbed with pain. A huge pang of loneliness prevails.

I miss them.

Posted by jieyi at 9:20 PM

Monday, January 02, 2006

Confessions

Sorry Rae, promised to update this entry on the 31st, but my computer was sent for repair.

And so, I'm here to make my new year resolutions for 2006.
I must confess that I can't wait to leave NY soon. Just get me out of JC as fast as possible. Maybe some have already heard me say this for many many times, but it is what I felt upon returning back to Singapore.

I have to clarify that I did once hate NY. Heh, but have forgiven it.
Roosevelt once said that " Forgive, but never forget".

I believed that I had never told anyone why I hated NY so much. It was not so much of a deep dark hatred. It was more of a dislike, a kind of disdain towards it. My choice to NY was somewhat quite wrong and for this wrong choice, I paid the price. Wasted a lot of tears, sobs and heart aches for many months to come. It marred 2005 utterly. I once hated the school like a childish little kid for it was the root of my sorrows.

Yet when the wounds heal, I came to realise that it was me myself and I who was unable to put down all that excess baggage. It weighed me down very much. However, this whole incident made me stronger, emotionally and psychologically. Learning to face defeat, and rise from the ashes. (:

I love you all and bless you all in 2006(:

PS: On the other hand, 2005 was a year that I met people, people who made me a better person I guess. Muacks.