Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Restarting

I know that if I'm going to continue surviving in NUS, I would definitely need to push up those terrible CAPs of my. To hit my ideal target, a 4.5 is needed this semester. But that's like OH-MY-GOD, I NEED TO WORK MY ASS OFF!

Dear me: Reality check tells if you want to end up clinching the better programmes, that is your only route.

It's high time that I should start ditching some of my work and work on those books.

-Push the Restart button and off we go! Wheeeee -

Posted by jieyi at 11:16 PM

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

The past few days had been an emotional roller coaster for me. It was like my thoughts are preoccupied with the same issue, and they filled up every single moment of my time. It moved around in swirls and circles, like mini tornadoes going on in my head.

Would any fool want to be saddled with a $0.25million dollar debt on your education?
I am that fool.

Somehow, after just ranting it out to poor Steven, my thoughts became clear. And a day spent in the library provided me some practical notions of the costs and fees. My cost analysis was pretty much straightened out. I kinda feel vindicated to a certain extent.

Come April and the moment of truth would be out. Bracing myself for another rolling and coasting about.

Posted by jieyi at 11:35 PM

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Holy moley crap. It's a terribly uneven path ahead that makes it so difficult to move.

UCB has now officially classified me as a transfer student which equates to lesser chances of qualifying! I'm trying hard to rectify my status back as freshmen, but only if they'll agree to it. This is so difficult.

Chee told me this that we spend half of our lives waiting for something, something that's worth spending the other half of our lives on. And I hope that it'll be coming soon.

HOLY MOLEY.

Posted by jieyi at 2:04 PM

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Another one left from Terminal One, Row Five. Hope all three of them would have a pleasant experience over there and all the best to them.

I miss Rae and her good food outlets. Her encouragements and her silly smile
I would miss Ah Tan quite a bit for the Chicken Rice and Ben & Jerry's.

I hate sending people off because it makes me think of myself.

I was just telling Wee today that the feeling of running away is building up inside me. Wee said that wishes would come true if we wished hard and long enough. If what she says contains some truth, then maybe mine would be realized soon.

Posted by jieyi at 12:19 AM

Thursday, February 14, 2008

I had to mess it all up. The chance that was thrown to me.

Perhaps it is signaling to me that I'm not cut to write for the big papers.

Why do I have to screw this big one up?

Maybe it's not time for me to go there.

Maybe it's telling me that it's time to stop dreaming.

I need Rae. I need to tell her this, to tell her how disappointed I am, to tell her that I've momentarily lost my courage.

Posted by jieyi at 8:53 PM

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

I feel a little lost.

Maybe a little scared that tomorrow's results will not turn out good enough, especially for the writing section.

I am scared that the limited places would be allocated to someone else.

I am quite afraid to be disappointed.

So I hope that it would all turn out fine.

Haven't had to mood to study much and I screwed up test number 1 of the year.

Great.

Lost in the city.

Thank you tinywingz although I know she doesn't have my blog address.
Thank you for making my Uni days seem better.